Lupus Warrior

I have Lupus. That DOESN’T mean I didn't take care myself. That I refuse to exercise, that I eat properly, that make up my symptoms or whine and complain a lot. It DOES mean that I push myself to the limit constantly. I try to overcompensate where I feel lack. I hide my feelings and everything that may be wrong behind my smiles. I cry in desperation and fear when I am alone and I often wonder how will I live to my next moment. I don’t want to live this way, but I know I have no other choice. I have lupus, I didn’t ask for it. I didn’t create it. Don’t judge and criticize me because you don’t understand it. Don’t have with live with it and haven’t walked a day in my lupus shoe. ~copy n paste~